I feel like a blob!

I was doing soo well! I was working out 3 times a week, I was eating better. I was motivated. Somewhere in the past few weeks that has all changed. I have no motivation at all. I would rather stay in bed or drag my lazy self to lay on the beach then to do anything that might actually benefit me. And to be honest, I not really sure where all this lazyness came from. I was enjoying working out, I loved the way it felt. I had more energy, I was sleeping better! Why is it so easy to stop something that is soo good! Its not like I dread going to the gym, although now that seems to be how it is.

Some how I must find that motivation again. Its hiding in me somewhere. I have it until it comes time for me to actually get out of bed. All this being said while I am continuing to lay in bed instead of being at the gym as initially planned. I excused it by saying I would just go after work, but I know that is about as likely and it snowing in FL tomorrow.

My life has become a cycle of late nights, sleeping in, working and laying on the beach. I know sound terrible right? But honestly I feel soo blah. I feel like I have lost my passion for anything and everything and like I am just floating by right now. Something has to change, and soon!

Im going to the hair show on Sunday. Im hoping the will at least spark my creativity again. Get something flowing. Maybe if I can find that part again the motivation for the rest of my life will follow? All I know is I have to start moving again! I hate feeling soo blah and lazy, yet it is soo hard to do something about it. Its soo much easier just to sit in bed on my laptop for a bit longer then to get up pack everything I will need for work and showering purposes and heading to the gym.

I think its time to slow down and refocus. I can’t keep up with the whirlwind life I have created for myself. I think that why I cant be bothered to pull myself out of bed earlier that absolutely necessary. My body is tired, and poorly feed. I think its trying to send me a message! Time for change!

the perfect sunday…

After a long week of work and fighting off a cold, sometimes you just need to spend they day one the beach with cocktails and good friends. So, that exactly what I did. After a late breakfast with my brother I drove out to a local beach bar and we spent the next 5-6 hours laying in the sun, drinking, and playing in the ocean. I could have asked for a more perfect start to the new week. It was so much fun, and so relaxing. It was just what I needed. Things have been so busy recently that is was just really nice to stop for min and just enjoy the moment!

On that front things continue to be very busy. In the next month and a half or so, on top of the normal routine I have my brothers 21st birthday (which clearly has to be made into a big event), Hopefully flying back to MD to see my sister and her new baby (thats hoping that the baby actually decides to make her appearance soon.) , a class for work, a photoshoot for the salon, my birthday and my friend coleys wedding. I have pretty full plate in front of me, but although I will be very busy, it should be fun! And of course I will balance it all out with time on the beach, and catch phrase with tipsy friends! Things are good…

I should be at the gym…

But I have been working a lot recently, and I am tired. And I fear that I am getting sick. I have a nasty sore throat! So I instead just let my body decide when it was time to wake up. One of the perks of not having to be at work until noon! Sometimes I forget how geed it feels to wake up naturally. Not loud awful alarm beeping in your ear. Just slowly coming into conciseness on your own.

Things have been busy. We had a class last weekend an earth month walk yesterday, and up coming photo shoot and another class, and I am waiting on my sister to have her baby so I can go see it. Things have been good, but very busy.. I think I needed the sleep. Although I really do need to get back into my gym schedule. You slack for one week and then you just dont want to go back.

well, off to make breakfast before work…

So they say….

that a lady bug landing on you is good luck….

Well, is it still good luck if you accidentally kill the lady big in a panicked frenzy of trying to remove the unknown crawly thing from you neck? or does it then become bad luck!

Im sorry ladybug! I didn’t mean to hurt you…. You just scared me….

boy meets girl…

they have a lot of fun and boy says nice things to girl. Girls see boy taking another girls number. boy swears he was just being polite to a friend of a friend and deletes other girls number. Girl still wont give her number to boy. Boy tries one more time before the night is over. Girl smiles and leave.

next day girl feels bad because she might have been a little harsh on boy. friends him on myspace to make amends. girl receives this message:

Hey…. So you never gave me your number, so I’m giving you mine…

xxx xxx xxxx

You work at salon? My friend A works there. She used to date my friend R for a long time, I’ve known her for quite a while. She’s a rad chick.

It was nice hanging out with you last night..

Hopefully I’ll talk to you soon…

boy

Girl responds and send number then texts boy to be sure he has it. Girl then finds out that before he got the number from her, he got it from her friend but then decided it might be weird to call girl when she had not given her number.(friend tells girl that boy also confirmed to said friend that the girl from the other night was just a friend of a friend and he didn’t even remember her name. said he liked girl)

Five days pass and girl wonders why boy hasn’t contacted her. Girl texts boy a chats for a bit but boy is at work. So girl says I will stop bothering you at work give me a call later. boy says sounds good. 2 days later girl still has not heard from boy.

what does girl do? why would boy go through so much trouble to get a number and not use it? girl is very confused.

I love a lazy sunday…

My weekend wasnt terribly eventful. I work both jobs on Saturday so that took up all of that day. But today was lovely. I woke up fairly early, had breakfast and when to lay on the beach for a few hours. I came home, sat on the porch and did my own mani pedi and chatted with some friends online for a bit. Then we grilled hot dogs and burgers for dinner , and the Coley came by for a bit. I was slow, lazy and wonderful! I am soo thrilled that it is finally feeling like summer again! I love the beach, and the warmth, and the fact that I am finally getting some color again! I am really looking forward to the continuing beautiful weather and intend to spend at least part of every weekend on the beach from here on out!

since when does hi mean please grab my booty?

I just don’t understand guys these days. Since when does being friendly give you a right to touch me? Some jerk at the club tonight kept grabbing my booty, so me and my girl just walked away. Unfortunately the guy followed shortly and when we tried to get away again he tried to block us. Luckily there was a large bouncer near by who took over and kicked the guy out. But honestly, what is going on. Why do guys think they have the right to feel me up? What happened to all the nice guys?

feeling better

wow, that was a weird little freak out the other night. I think maybe I just needed to cry a little. Outside of that, things are great. Things at the salon are going really well, and they seem to be very pleased with me! I have moved on to phase two of my training there , and I think I will like this part much better. Although I still cant wait to be done with it all together. Four hours on a monday night after working all day can be a bit much! Im have fun with my friends. Had the past two weekends off from the second job so I went out one sat for a friends birthday and went out last sat with a girl from work. Had such a blast both weekends! this past sunday I went to the zoo with my family and we had so much fun! Things are definitely looking good…

lonely….

Im tired of being a lone. Im tired of feeling undesirable! I hate how things are right now. And I really hate how everyone hows in better situations is telling me how its all going to be ok one day!

Ugh, im never drinking wine again…. it makes me way to emotional!

Ugh,

I have a cold, and I cant breath. It makes me tired! It is awful and I hate it! I just want to stay in bed all week until it is over! Sadly, I must go to work instead! (though I do love my job) I am going to try to go to the gym before work in the morning, lets hope it doesn’t kill me!