I feel like a blob!

I was doing soo well! I was working out 3 times a week, I was eating better. I was motivated. Somewhere in the past few weeks that has all changed. I have no motivation at all. I would rather stay in bed or drag my lazy self to lay on the beach then to do anything that might actually benefit me. And to be honest, I not really sure where all this lazyness came from. I was enjoying working out, I loved the way it felt. I had more energy, I was sleeping better! Why is it so easy to stop something that is soo good! Its not like I dread going to the gym, although now that seems to be how it is.

Some how I must find that motivation again. Its hiding in me somewhere. I have it until it comes time for me to actually get out of bed. All this being said while I am continuing to lay in bed instead of being at the gym as initially planned. I excused it by saying I would just go after work, but I know that is about as likely and it snowing in FL tomorrow.

My life has become a cycle of late nights, sleeping in, working and laying on the beach. I know sound terrible right? But honestly I feel soo blah. I feel like I have lost my passion for anything and everything and like I am just floating by right now. Something has to change, and soon!

Im going to the hair show on Sunday. Im hoping the will at least spark my creativity again. Get something flowing. Maybe if I can find that part again the motivation for the rest of my life will follow? All I know is I have to start moving again! I hate feeling soo blah and lazy, yet it is soo hard to do something about it. Its soo much easier just to sit in bed on my laptop for a bit longer then to get up pack everything I will need for work and showering purposes and heading to the gym.

I think its time to slow down and refocus. I can’t keep up with the whirlwind life I have created for myself. I think that why I cant be bothered to pull myself out of bed earlier that absolutely necessary. My body is tired, and poorly feed. I think its trying to send me a message! Time for change!