“Today is a winding road that’s taking me to places that I didn’t want to go… I gotta find a way out, maybe theres a way out…” ~ Boys Like Girls
This whole not being able to sleep thing is getting old fast! Like I didn’t already have trouble sleeping in the first place, some asshole decided it would suit him to try to break in to my room and make me afraid to sleep in my own house. Yea, I know that I am in a how different state now, and yes I am well aware that I have my family here, and no one could even being to attempt to break in with out the dogs freaking out… But somehow, when night falls and I am alone in my room… well, all that sensibility goes right out the window, and I dont even want to turn out the lights! The light makes everything seem a little safer, yet makes it that much harder to fall asleep.
And as if that all weren’t enough, last night I had one of the worst migraine I have ever had. Unfortunately, I am very prone to head aches and migraines aren’t really that out of the ordinary for me. But this one was AWFUL! Your in soo much pain your crying, which only makes it hurt more, but you really cant stop… and you know the only thing that will really help is sleep, but when you hurt like that sleep doesn’t come so easily. And once I finally did fall asleep, it wasn’t long before I was awake again , and throwing up…. Worn out and shaking and not in any less pain I drag myself back to bed, and try to get some sleep. My poor mother was up all night taking care of/worrying about me. Having got little sleep last night, and waking up feeling weak, and still off… the job hunt was put off!
So, tomorrow (even though it seems I wont be getting much sleep tonight either) the job hunt will officially begin. Wish me luck with that… and then its off to the dentist.. Ugh! I hate the dentist! Really though, I hope this whole job thing doesn’t take long. Its been almost 3 weeks since I have worked and its starting to drive me crazy! Honestly, the break for it was really nice at first… But now, Im in a town where I don’t know my way around, I don’t know anyone, and I don’t have an income… Not shaping up very well. Ready to get out there and meet people….
