Lost in thought… (Rant on close mindedness)

” To be alone is to be different, to be different is to be alone.” ~ Suzanne Gordon

Have you ever been surrounded  by people, yet somehow manage to feel completely alone. This is what I have felt for a while now. I think a large part of it is the need to escape the place I am now. The need to moving on with my life, and find a place that I feel at home. A place that I enjoy being, that awakens your senses and your passion for life. I am a passionate person, yet, living in a small-minded town with little to no diversity I fear I have lost this passion. I must find it again. The joy in the little things, the ability to wake up happy, feeling complete… these are the thing I miss and long to find again. I feel suffocated by others fear of whats different from them. I want to scream as others try to push there beliefs on me, on others. The world is a huge place, there are so many different cultures, different places, different ways of life… and who know, maybe your right, maybe yours is the only way… but I in my heart cannot wrap my head around the idea that in a world full of options there is only one path. Few things bother me a much as people view a simple difference of opinions , a different set of beliefs and ignorant. Just because I dont agree with you does not by any means that I am uneducated. And who are you to tell me I am wrong. I am happy for you that you are so strong in your beliefs.. that must be a wonderful feeling, but what kinda of person does it make you to be looking down on those who dont share it? What makes you so wonderful, that you can weigh the value and worth of another beliefs? How are anyones reason (what every they may be) an less valid that yours? As long as no one is being hurt, why is a different view so threating? Why are people so afraid of different… why cant we learn to love and embrace, and at the very least accept and tolerate those who are different.  What a boring world  it would be if we were all the same.  Purple hair or not I am still a person, and no matter what label I choose to give my beliefs, I am still a good caring person. And in the end isn’t that what truly matters? Why does there have to be a label or grouping for everything? Why cant we just be?

Ok, yes I know… this is just how people are.. but it is so sad that it has to be this way. Yes, we have some far… but there is still so much farther to go… I long for the day that I can walk out my door and live my life, speak my opinions and not be judged for them… You don’t have to agree with me, in fact I would want everyone to always agree – again that would be rather boring – but cant we just agree to disagree and move on with our lifes no judgment involved?

I guess, I just dont want to feel so alone… Im hoping this move will be that start of the much needed change in my life… 5 days to go, and I’ll be on my way to starting over…